Adverse Religious Experiences/Trauma

Our congregation’s Safe Space group had a booth at Galesburg Pride this month. We heard a lot of stories of painful encounters between people and their [former] congregations. Our congregation is a place committed to helping people heal from the painful experiences. “Adverse Religious Experiences” are what we call them. If you pile up the effects of adverse religious experiences, the result is Religious Trauma.

My doctoral thesis highlighted the liberating nature of God – from Egypt to Exodus and to the end of time. I wanted to read deeply and study God as liberator because the predominant message of Christianity in the US is anything BUT “Good news for the poor and excluded.” Once you start reading scripture through this lens, it is difficult to do otherwise.

The following is a picture I created for people to share. Any message you hear about Jesus that shames people who have already been pushed to the edges of society [often by other Christians] or that doesn’t speak of Jesus as a healer, liberator, or One who loves unconditionally, may be a religious message, but it is not about Jesus – the light, the life, the living water, the Savior, the bread of life, living God, teacher, redeemer, and much more.

Sermon June 4, 2023 – A Liberating God

The eleven disciples went to Galilee to the mountain to, which Jesus had directed them. When they saw him, they worshipped him. But some doubted. And Jesus came and said to them, all authority in heaven and on Earth has been given to me. go therefore and Make Disciples of all Nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father, and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit and teaching them to obey everything that I have commanded you and remember, I am with you always to the end of the age. (Matthew 28)

Dear siblings in Christ, grace to you and peace. From the Abba God, from the only begotten, and the Holy Spirit. Amen

Trinity Sunday. This used to be his Sunday that most preachers did everything they could to get out ofi. It is the only Sunday in the church year that is devoted to a doctrine.

How does the father and the Son, and the Holy Spirit all work together?

And we tried to figure it out. I mean we tried HARD! I have read so many commentaries about preachers, trying to figure it out and trying to get God to fit into a neat and tidy box.

I don’t know when that was, but at some point.

I realized that was ludicrous.

I wasn’t helping anyone by trying to talk about God as water and ice, and steam. Or the apple core and the flesh and the skin or any of those three-sided things that make you scratch your head and go like how is God like that?

Well, God ISN’T

And realizing that is the first step in realizing that God  is so much more.

I printed out. And if you have a copy you’re welcome to grab it. There’s more in the on the way in and out but our newest hymnal has three pages of images for God in the Bible.

Because God is so much bigger. Than just Father Son and Holy Spirit or one meme put it. God is not two guys and a bird.

God is so much bigger! Last week. We talked about the Flames of the Holy Spirit. Well, Bob did. Great job, Bob. Thank you. That was inspired!

The flames of the holy spirit that rested on the disciples at Pentecost. You carry that flame from the day of your baptism. You carry that flame into the world. In today’s Gospel, Jesus says, “Go Make Disciples. Of all Nations.”

“Teaching them.

All that I have commanded.”

Now there’s a trick here. You might have figured this out if we’ve been around for about 10 years. Or less. You’ve heard me preach. All right?  All that Jesus commanded can be summed up in.

Love God. Love neighbor. Or to sum it up,  oh just LOVE

All that I have commanded – and baptize them.

Teach them/disciple them in the ways of love

and baptize them in the name of the Father and of the Son, and of the Holy Spirit.

The name, the name, was never meant to be a limiter.

We use it as a formula and, you know, the Lutheran Church is pretty good about formulas and other formal things. Father, Son, and Holy Spirit V

But in the scripture, God is imaged as a quality – like glory, hope, and strength and truth. That’s who God is.

Or even as an element of nature –  blazing bush, cloud, cypress, dew, light, Morningstar, rain, root, shade, sun, thunder, vine, wind. None of those things can be contained – especially wind.

That’s the beauty of solar and wind power.

You can use them for energy but they’re not going to run out. That is God. so you take all of these images for God, and you roll them together and you sort of have a picture.

But just a glimpse.

Of the infinite and intimate nature of God.

Jesus has been called Alpha and Omega, the beginning and the end. Jesus called himself bread, cornerstone, cup, drink, dwelling place, fortress, fountain, gate, hiding place, horn of salvation and so much more.

God has been compared to numerous animals so that you can picture strength and protection, and wisdom.

And the Lamb of God.

God has been referred to in scripture as a woman as a comforting mother, a laboring mother, a midwife, or just a mother.

“you forgot the God who gave you birth.” (Deut 32:18)

That’s the creative force of God. And the best way to talk about creative force is birth.

We are born of water and the Spirit. Of God

God is referred to as a man but not solely as a man. The bridegroom. The Father, the husband, the king, the son.

And the embodied person – Breath. Ears, eyes, face, feet, finger, hand,  mouth, nostrils, voice, all parts of the body,

and as different types of human workers –  The Advocate, Avenger, Builder, composer.  God’s a musician!

Creator

friend garment maker, healer horse rider, house cleaner, judge, keeper, lawgiver, maker.  Master, metalworker, parent, planter, potter, priest redeemer. Servant, Shepherd, teacher, wine grower, warrior, and wrestler.

and as Divine being, deity, God of weather, goddess of wisdom, head deity, monster slayer. Son of man.

I hope you can take this list with you and just let it spark your imagination.

Because God is so much more than we can stuff into a trinitarian box.

In fact,

one of the things that God is,

And is best at is relationship.

This book is one of my favorites. It’s called The Divine dance. by Richard Rohr

Rohr talks about the Trinity as playing with each other, the one who is the creative Interacting with the one who is Spirit wind breath, ruach

And the Son. The Son who was in the beginning at creation, the Son, who became flesh, became one of us who walked the earth and experienced humanity. First hand.

It’s not a hard book.

But it’s a beautiful read. I just want to give you a couple images.

because God is, Relationship.

You can’t manufacture God’s love. It doesn’t come out of that box that we put God into.

Rohr writes.

“You can go to church every day for the rest of your life. God isn’t going to love you any more than God loves you right now. You cannot make God love you any less, either. Not an ounce less. Do the Terrible Things, steel and pillage, cheat and lie and God wouldn’t love you less. You cannot change the Divine mind about you, the flow is constant. Total.

Rohr, The Divine Dance

And 100% for your life.

God is for you. We can’t diminish God’s love for us, What we can do however is learn how to believe it receive it. Trust it. Allow it. And celebrate it. Accepting Trinity’s whirling invitation. To join in the cosmic dance.

ibid.

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That’s the God, that Jesus was inviting the disciples and us – to share with the whole world. Right?  Not to conquer them, not to beat them  – literally and emotionally until they confess what we confess.

but to believe and trust in this outlandish and liberating LOVE

That is something that we would want to share.

Not something we have to share.

One other place Rohr writes.  And he’s sharing an image from Hildegard of Bingen, a German Benedictine, writer, philosopher Mystic. Everything.

She called the spirit “endless fertility and fecundity, veruditas – the quality of divine light that makes everything blossom and bloom in endless shades of green.” And he writes “Hildegard was likely inspired by the lushness of her surroundings. At her monestery which I was able to attend in similar reference for the natural world.

Green is chosen to represent, as it were, the Divine Photosynthesis.

That grows everything from within.

By transforming light into itself

Precisely the work of the Holy Spirit

This is a wonderful time of year to see plants grow.  We drove up to Wisconsin this weekend.  We got to see the rolling hills of The Kettle Moraine this weekend. So green. Photosynthesis – you take seeds – and dirt.

Just seeds and dirt. That’s what we start with in March. It’s a ridiculous act of faith, of hope. Add water. Add light. And you’ve got verdant growth.  Life, beauty, creativity, love!

That is the God that Jesus called us to make Disciples of others.

To baptize. To wash the muck of the world’s hatred and evil off of us.

To rise up. Baptized into the mission of Jesus

Baptism, isn’t  –

I told this at my class when Owen preparing for his baptism. Baptism, isn’t fire insurance?  It’s not about only about the afterlife.

 It’s about living that life in relationship with God. Who is EVERYTHING. It is about being attached to the MISSION OF JESUS

And I’m going to tell you a secret.

There are people who dearly don’t want us to know this.

Bob preached about it really well last Sunday. “How dare you?”

“How dare you, Jesus, hang out with those people that we have put in their place.”

Rev Bob Clark

That was memorable, Bob. “How dare you?”

And I’m going to tell you why. It’s because God loves everybody.

and when you hear somebody who says, “yeah but, what about traditional Christian values?”

I want you to have the words to respond to them.

Those traditional Christian values.

Are oppressive.

Those traditional Christian values were the values of the Confederacy.

Jesus was not about traditional Christian values.

And I hope we can go out into the world and share a different message.

That God is so much more. And so are we.

We are bearers of this light. To the world.

And sometimes, it seems like the whole world is being swallowed up by darkness. By hate.

Hate is not a traditional Christian value. There are people who will try to tell you it is.

Jesus, never EVER said.  “Hate the sin. Love The Sinner.” That’s not Jesus. That’s something else.

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My dear siblings.

Who do you know that needs to hear this message?

That God is a LIBERATOR.

God is LIGHT.

GOD IS LOVE

and we can start our prayer petitions with Our Father Who Art in Heaven, or we can start them with Mother, Mother Spirit, God, Light of the world, or any number of images we find in the Bible and in our hearts.

The language is inclusive of all the attributes of God.

And God is not offended.if we say, mothering spirit,

You have that voice. And you have to share it.

If you found that like that, love that embrace.

You have the story that needs to be shared.

For so many generations. We pawned off our children to Christian Ed. We all, we thought we were doing the right thing.

But my parents never taught me about this Jesus. There was nothing exciting or life giving about the Christianity that they had learned.

They thought that Sunday School teachers were more well-equipped.

They weren’t.

Some are. Rhonda – you’ve got the Spirit. You have got the Spirit! But we have to be talking to our families. To our loved ones about this liberating God. You don’t have to tell people to come to church – you can. You can invite them to hear about this liberating God.

But we each – Jesus commissioned ALL the disciples and us, to tell this good news.

Don’t be embarrassed about it. Don’t let someone say you’re not a real Christian because we’ve all heard it. “Oh, you go to that church.”

We’ve all heard it.

Have the words to defend your faith.

Because in the end, it’s not going to be the small and narrow voices.

That get to define who God is.  God is everything, everywhere, and ALL LOVE.

I hope today you can feel that love. And know that love.

And share that love.

The peace of God that passes all understanding  keep your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus our Lord. Amen

It’s Not About the Teachers or the Books

About 60 years ago, my father was on the original local board that consolidated our area rural schools into a consolidated school district. He was so proud of that. By combining resources, they could create one school in a relatively decent sized small town. K-12 were all in the same building. The families and citizens of those rural schools could pool their resources, pay teachers with bachelor’s degrees, buy books, science equipment, teach music, field competitive sports teams, and so much more. Farmers by trade, books, education, and community involvement were the passions of both my parents. This apple didn’t fall far from the tree.

I just read this story today that chilled me to the bone. It is about a Colorado school board that was taken over by ultra-conservatives, who do what ultra-conservatives do. Since the article is a long, but important read, I’ve clipped three short quotes to encourage you to read the rest. They were elected and quickly moved to:

become the first — and, so far, only — district in the country to adopt the American Birthright social studies standard, created by a right-wing advocacy group that warns of the “steady whittling away of American liberty.”

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“It is terribly important to be a disengaged citizen, and indeed, a disengaged student,” said David Randall, research director at the National Association of Scholars, a conservative organization that created the standards last year.

As teachers, students and parents began protesting these decisions, the administration barred employees from discussing the district on social media. At least two staff members who objected to the board’s decisions were later forced out of their jobs, while another was fired for allegedly encouraging protests.

https://www.nbcnews.com/news/us-news/woodland-park-colorado-school-board-conservatives-rcna83311

It is a chilling, but not surprising read. The dismantling of public education is on an agenda, and we the people need to pay attention. They use bullet point talking points that appeal to most decent people

  • Family Values (as if no one else has them)
  • God (Christian only)
  • Rights (theirs only)
  • Liberty (theirs only)
  • Book Banning (their choices)
  • Fear mongering in general and specific “They are coming for your guns.” “They are recruiting your kids to be gay.” “Grooming.” “The war on Christmas.” “The end of the world.” “To teach that history will indoctrinate our kids.” I could go on.
  • Defunding, and defaming teachers. An intended consequence of this is that qualified teachers are leaving the profession, harder to find, and uncredentialed/unqualified people are recruited to take their places.
  • Reappropriation of word meanings. To be “woke” is bad. “ANTIFA” (literally an abbreviation for “against Fascism) is bad. “Christian Values” – that allow you get to hate (legislate against, shoot) your neighbor if they think or act differently than you do, while further oppressing the “orphan, widow,” and other vulnerable ones. More below.
  • Anti-public education/pro-voucher voiced as “parent choice.” It is a backdoor way to defund public education and channel public funds to schools that can freely discriminate, and teach these bullet points as foundations to a good education.
  • Well-coordinated and well-funded efforts to stack local, regional, and national offices with extreme candidates who have no interest in a middle or common ground.
  • Anti separation of church and state (for Christians)
  • An obsession with controlling total strangers’ reproductive organs and activities.
  • Agenda. Villainizing opposition for having one, not acknowledging their own, e.g. the gay agenda, the liberal agenda
  • Anti-LGBTQIA+ (not just as personal opinions, but to legislate their human and legal rights away,
  • Pro-life (until the child is born)
  • Anti-science
  • Gun violence is a mental health issue (but consistently vote against improvements in mental health services).
  • 2nd Amendment is the most important, and freedom of speech (1st Amendment) does not apply to those who disagree with them
  • Blaming poor people en bloc for problems not of their own creating.
  • If you are not with them you are not patriotic, as if an insurrection, and attempted coup were actually patriotic.
  • Dismantling government agencies, services, and programs intended for the common good.
  • look up the “Quiverfull Movement” for more on the extreme intentionality of the leaders of these people.

I hope you don’t stop reading because these things sound cynical. They are just observations across time and place. Please read because historically speaking, these issues are extremely important. These are empire collapsing issues. As a progressive Christian, I want to say that their viewpoints are not the only perspective a Christian can have. Nor are they particularly Christian if you look at Christianity through the basic teachings of Jesus, for example, Matthew 25 – “When did I see you Jesus and do – or not do for them? (nutshell) The difference in Jesus’ words to those who did, or did not do for the “least of these” is stark. Jesus’ words of blessing and inheritance are for the doers, and strongest words of judgment, even everlasting punishment are for those who did not.

Our country went through a period when we collectively understood the value of caring for most of our neighbors, and collectively providing a good public education that was accessible to all young people. In those years, regular working-class people could purchase a home and pay it off. College students could work their way through by working a side job. A young adult could move away from home, get an apartment and be self-sufficient. Remember when one parent could reasonably expect and be expected to stay home with children? I will not talk about the obvious issues of racism, sexism, and other isms of the time. This is just about economics.

And then, it started eroding. Today, the federal minimum wage is still $7.25. In general, those “family values” states have not increased it. Can you imagine being a young couple working entry level jobs (because they couldn’t afford college) and having a baby or several, because they did not have the right to decide when or if to have children. A single parent, without outside support, is pretty much doomed to a life of poverty. Poverty for most is intentional.

But it isn’t just about the beginning of life. I have visited people in nursing home rooms that were frankly little better than prisons. I know an elderly person who lives at home and knows exactly, to the month, how long their savings will last. They worked a lifetime and paid into Social Security as the law required, and as a self-employed business owner, paid both halves. Their very modest house is paid off. Social Security benefits do not even pay out enough for a couple hours of regular, nonmedical in-home help. The bullet point people above think the elderly in our country do not need Social Security or that it should be privatized.

All the most vulnerable people in our country are in deep trouble. It will not get better without intervention.

In hindsight, there have been many predictive events in my life. The event that really caused me to take pause, and actually think about the downfall of ancient empires happened about 15 years ago, when the school board in the very conservative community where I was living at the time, decided to take all the elementary school librarians out of the schools. It was the beginning of the downfall of children being equipped to read a variety of books on a variety of topics.

A few years later, an organized group was working hard on our local school board to have LGBTQIA+ student taken out of the classes of protected people in the district “anti-harassment policy.” Yes, that’s a lot of double negatives. Plain-speak, their purpose was to legitimize the harassment of these students. This was not the first time they had been before the board. They had all sorts of books they wanted removed from the library. For the most part, they were home schoolers.

I pushed back. As a progressive Christian clergy, I spoke to the board, unraveled the double negatives, and asked them, “Wouldn’t it be appropriate for all students to feel safe in an environment free from harassment?” Why single out some to be harassed? My high school age daughter and I were chased by these people in the parking lot after the meeting and didn’t feel safe until we pulled into the Police Department drive. These people started harassing people at the congregation I served. Nobody likes that kind of conflict.

Do you remember when the Tea Party called themselves a “grass roots movement?” These people in our last community were a proud part of it. They believed they came up with these ideas all on their own. I believe they were being used for a cause much larger than their desire for moral purity in everyone. Maybe individuals on the ground think they are grass roots and protecting family values. Many Christian churches and individuals don’t see these issues as politcal, but faith-based. However, if a Christian tries to argue against their points, they will be called “being political.” There is most certainly a larger orchestration to all of this.

In 2012, we moved to another community in a different state (not unrelated to the above). And we discovered that there was indeed, a playbook. But our new community was a more even red/blue mix. They were a few years behind our former community in using these tactics. They are here now. Now, I can identify it on national news quite easily, and local news, what’s left of it.

Some Identifiers

  • When a community board has new ultra-conservative members elected to a majority, and at their first meeting, it appears that they have made some decisions together before the meeting.
  • When a governor has the power, and authority to decide to ban the teaching of Black history in public schools.
  • When women’s bodily autonomy is taken away by legislative action.
  • When any (insert minority) rights are taken away by legislative action.
  • When minor crimes committed by (insert minority here) are far more severely punished than far more serious crimes in the business world.
  • When corporations are treated as people, but human and civil rights are eroding before our eyes.
  • When public input is limited at public meetings, because “the people have spoken because they elected me.”
  • When individuals feel empowered to make school boards ban books and authors, and the boards feel those voices are the most important to listen to.
  • When a legislator is banned from speaking for language related to their experience as a trans (again, insert minority here) person. This business of banning people from speaking is relatively new to me. Keep your eyes on it.
  • When the people who caused and supported the insurrection on January 6, 2021 are writing laws and holding the full faith and credit rating of the United States hostage, until they get massive cuts to the social networks that our most vulnerable need, rather than raising the Social Security Cap in order for the ultra-rich pay into it, or their fair share of taxes. You know that some else is pulling the strings on this puppet show.
  • When civil discourse seems nearly impossible and it seems they have nearly won.

The United States and the smaller legislative units of it cannot afford to go in this direction. History tells us a few things.

  • When teachers are prevented from teaching a variety of viewpoints by fear tactics, the students themselves learn to use fear tactics, and not education and reason.
  • When children are exposed to lots of books and lots of ideas from the earliest age, they become reasonable adults, able to entertain a variety of viewpoints. The opposite is also true.
  • Book banning leads to book burning. Book burning is violent and leads to other types of violence.
  • When dissent is economically punished, it is not long until it is physically punished. And mortally punished.
  • Keeping your constituents in poverty is a well-known tactic to keep your constituency docile. Slavery may not be legal in our country per se, but there are ways around it. Why do you really think Central American migrants are spoken of so hatefully? It is part of the narrative because if their home countries are continuously destabilized* and workers work for pennies on what even our most meager minimum wages offer, we can continue to ship our manufacturing to these places. Red states will keep their minimum wages low.

And finally, a brief observation. In 2004, I travelled for the first time to El Salvador. I was a guest of the bishop and his wife who was a pastor. I saw their people through their loving eyes. I saw a country, still recovering from a horrible “civil” war. Young adults who were raising children, had been children during the war years. I can’t imagine the horrors of having whole villages slaughtered, and the very real fear of the powers that had no regard for their very humanity. The whole country had PTSD! I had a meeting with the bishop and others at the US Embassy. The conversation was about the impact of water privatization on the poor. It was obvious, in the wake of their war, everything had been militarized. Though they had a new democratic government, poverty was still profound, and corruption was still a powerful force.

This was one of my first travels post-9/11. I was unaccustomed to the extra security at US airports. I was not ready for the experience of getting to their country and seeing that absolutely everything was militarized. Inside the airport. Outside the airport. Street police officers and mall cops had military style weapons. The US embassy was a picture of opulence amid squalor. The security to get in and out was extreme. Even the church grounds, which held the Lutheran synod offices, had thick concrete walls around it. There was an entry point with an armed guard. Everyone’s walls either had razor wire or broken glass cemented into the top. The bishop had been kidnapped and tortured during the war because he stood on the side of the poor. We switch vehicles in a covered parking structure. He was threatened with bombings – years after the war.

Is this what we want to become?

Or can we do better?

No one has the luxury of saying “I don’t do politics. It doesn’t matter to me.” History tells us where that leads as well and it’s not good. Today, every small child in El Salvador learns about local politics and real events. Their parents will not have another generation being duped.

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*It is well-documented that the US funded and trained the El Salvadoran “death squads” during their civil war. They massacred whole villages of civilians in El Salvador, but trained in the US, by US troops. This is just one example.. https://www.theatlantic.com/international/archive/2018/01/trump-and-el-salvador/550955/

One of the tactics of this method at that time was to label anyone left of the EXTREME right as a leftist guerilla, (which brings up images of a random bomber or “guerrilla warfar”). In main stream media, you can go back and find articles where the peace-loving champion of the poor, Archbishop Romero, and six Jesuit priests were labeled guerillas. They were all assasinated, along with the priests’ housekeeper and her daughber, a group of nuns – among 75,000 others.

Here’s another article. https://orinocotribune.com/us-continues-its-long-history-of-using-death-squads/

ANTIFA, woke, snowflake, libtard, etc, are not innocent word usages. Its creation and purpose is to dehumanize reasonable people and make others think leftist guerrilla. It’s in the playbook.

Religious Trauma

I have a strong interest in learning to help heal those who have been traumatized by their religious experiences and have certification (30 hr) with the Global Center for Religious Research (GCRR.org). Here is a summary of what Adverse Religious Experiences, and Religious Trauma may look like. (There should be a PDF that appears below. It is downloadable. You may need to refresh your browser.) Please contact me in person for more information or to schedule a presentation.